Archive for ‘Poems’

November 26, 2012

Pretend

Pretend
for a second
That you love me
And I love you.
Simple
Pretend I trust you
And you, me
Pretend then that you believe
That I won’t change
You
Lets pretend I let you in
You turn the key
Pretend I jump into the abyss
Pretend you took my hand
And jumped
Now pretend
For a second
That we weren’t pretending
We won’t say a word
And love in a kiss

July 9, 2012

Stop

If I was a car
Then I could stop
for real.
The brakes take too-
Emergency brake.
But there is still
The Radios circulatory system of thoughts.
Oxygen fighting hopelessly for me against CO2.
Granted: Oxygen.
Expel its enemy,
Give it purpose
to give me purpose
Using it or using me?
The engine diaphragms-waiting
GO GO GO it rumbles
Sit still
yet still refuses to be stop
If I was a car
I wouldn’t bother braking.
Be more rash than emergency braking!
Whether I was at 100 or 5
I would turn the key
So I could stop
I wouldn’t matter if I was moving
since being still isn’t stopping.
Stop thinking
Stop breathing
Stop being
If I was a car I could stop
long enough to rest
vamp myself according to my tune this time

June 12, 2012

When I love you

I love
your voice,
My Heart
Your Lips,
My Eyes
Your skin,
Can’t Touch
I love you
Here
I love you
there
I love you
now
I love you
then
Not tomorrow:
you will be
gone
I love you
there
But I want you
here
touch
kiss
love
but I can never love thee
for you wont wake up tomorrow
here
for me to love

May 15, 2012

Dare I say love quotes?

“You tickle my heart to a giggling youth I thought lost”

“I love you, yesterday, today, tomorrow”

“Forever is a breathe that evades us, so I promise to always love you today”

“I love you x^3”

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May 7, 2012

One two three

One two three
Heart mocks
abusing
BLOW
A luring thought
Seconds away: peace
Clubbing at you
One two three
Minute-feel
A point
Doubling over
Tripling thoughts
One two three
Ours are hours
Fuck coke
Rambling heart
To a
Brain thumping
Idea
Two good reasons
Three words
To peace
“Just do it”
Seconds, minutes, hours
Who needs coke
When you have a brain like hours
To stay, pay
To stop it, obey
Sleep? Not think
No more
Hours, minutes, seconds
Three, two, one

May 2, 2012

I want, not

I want to write
Clever
Without letters
I want to kiss you
Without lips
I want to choose
without thinking
I want you
Without me

April 30, 2012

I am…

I am a Dog
dog dog dog
wag-wag-wag
wag my tail
smile smile smile
All the time trying to make you:
SMILE SMILE SMILE
kiss kiss kiss
want to kiss you al the time
no no no
I don’t want your shallow interest
no no no
can’t you hear me bark
No No No….
I want you by my side
WTF I don’t want to be a dog

I am a Cat
cat cat cat
can’t you hear me pur
pur pur pur
It means “I love you”
love love love
I want to be close to you
warmth warmth warmth
Here’s a rat
rat rat rat
for
you you you
It’s a token of my love to you
no no no
you give me a disturbed
LOOK LOOK LOOK
you don’t like how I pur my love
no no no
WTF I don’t want to be a cat

NO NO NO
don’t know what to be
neither seems work to me
all this love comes easy to me
but you gotta give me something
back…back…back…

NO NO NO
now I am a Bull
BULL BULL BULL
smashing myself against:
WALL. WALL. WALL. WALL.
that won’t budge
Budge? Budge? Budge?
WTF I don’t want to be a bull

now I really want to be a rabbit
YES YES YES
and
HIDE HIDE HIDE
in a hole
where I’m safe
safe safe safe?
with the warmth…warmth…warmth…
and the grumbling of the earth
and its dirt tenderly kissing me coat
but I cannot be a rabbit
Wait WTF? Why Not?
CAN’T CAN’T CAN’T
because the earth isn’t you
no…no…no…
wanna feel like I am
HERE HERE HERE
Yours…yours…yours….
not like a dog
trailing for you affection
no no no
nor like a cat
purring for you love
No no no
because I end up like the bull
going nowhere
make me feel like I am
Yours…

*Written January 2009

April 25, 2012

Fuck You

Thoughts rush through my mind
Reality waves ram upon my heart
The sun begins to set
The tide begins to rise
One by one the shells fall prey to the depths of the sea
Slowly they abandon the shore
I am left alone
Left only with my reflection upon the selfish ocean
Which takes and gives with no consideration toward me
Mocking me as it begins to slither through my toes
I stand there knowing that tonight will be different
Tomorrow you won’t be there
You have left me with tonights rising tide
Tomorrow I will look through the thousands of shells
There will be colorful and shiny ones
Tomorrow you won’t be among them
Eventhough you promised you wouldn’t do this
I was fool enough to believe
I was fool enough to fall inlove
I was fool enough to trust your every word
In my ear you would sing to me a lovely melody
In which you told me of your ocean of love
LOVE LOVE LOVE
The word makes me sick and the acids within smolder my heart
Your lusciuous lovely language of love was lubricated in lies
Which were ill-inspired by your selfish greed
But your not fully to blame
No
You told what I wanted to hear
What I needed to hear
What I yearned to hear
well…
forget this
undying
cancerous
kerfuffle:
YOU  

wrote this sometime january 2009, can you see the fuck you in the end? no? look again

April 17, 2012

White

Eve bit the apple
Sinking into its white poison
Her white teeth-
Fangs-
Disguised by her luscious lips:
A smile
Whitened corpse
White bones leeched by our sinful flesh
White mocks us
Binds us
White Picket Fence
White Dress
White Panties and White Bras
Aha!
White paper
Cuts so delicately
White:
Cut it, snort it, embrace it
An honest white
No propaganda
Snowing subtlety on your skin
FUN!
Angels, Snowmen, Sledding
Lies
Frostbite, Chapped Lips, Frigid
White
Tricks us
Makes us
Addicts
to this false notion of hope
Ignorance in Innocence

April 17, 2012

Gone

The sun teasingly unveils itself from its glistening ocean as it undresses its light
Light that crudely infiltrates my eyes
Eyes bloodied by the anguishing waking reality that you are gone
Gone with the nights cautioning tide of a spiteful heart
Heart engulfing my vessels with bittered-poisoned blood
Blood havocking into my brain in lacerating hate
Hate that was love
Love that was not there
There that I wanted to escape
Escape from sincere trust belittled by mistrust: then and now
Now lips draught of speech sewn all truths in the traitor within
Within, my heart morses every beat for freedom
Freedom is my master who has connived to imprison me
Me who foolishly freed myself from you, my friend
Friend who selfishly-selflessly bound my mouth to your ear
Ear which entertained with love my thoughts, myself
Myself which I threw away
Away from you:
My true best friend

Written May 2010, notice the repetition of words