Posts tagged ‘heartbreak’

April 25, 2012

Fuck You

Thoughts rush through my mind
Reality waves ram upon my heart
The sun begins to set
The tide begins to rise
One by one the shells fall prey to the depths of the sea
Slowly they abandon the shore
I am left alone
Left only with my reflection upon the selfish ocean
Which takes and gives with no consideration toward me
Mocking me as it begins to slither through my toes
I stand there knowing that tonight will be different
Tomorrow you won’t be there
You have left me with tonights rising tide
Tomorrow I will look through the thousands of shells
There will be colorful and shiny ones
Tomorrow you won’t be among them
Eventhough you promised you wouldn’t do this
I was fool enough to believe
I was fool enough to fall inlove
I was fool enough to trust your every word
In my ear you would sing to me a lovely melody
In which you told me of your ocean of love
LOVE LOVE LOVE
The word makes me sick and the acids within smolder my heart
Your lusciuous lovely language of love was lubricated in lies
Which were ill-inspired by your selfish greed
But your not fully to blame
No
You told what I wanted to hear
What I needed to hear
What I yearned to hear
well…
forget this
undying
cancerous
kerfuffle:
YOU  

wrote this sometime january 2009, can you see the fuck you in the end? no? look again

April 17, 2012

Gone

The sun teasingly unveils itself from its glistening ocean as it undresses its light
Light that crudely infiltrates my eyes
Eyes bloodied by the anguishing waking reality that you are gone
Gone with the nights cautioning tide of a spiteful heart
Heart engulfing my vessels with bittered-poisoned blood
Blood havocking into my brain in lacerating hate
Hate that was love
Love that was not there
There that I wanted to escape
Escape from sincere trust belittled by mistrust: then and now
Now lips draught of speech sewn all truths in the traitor within
Within, my heart morses every beat for freedom
Freedom is my master who has connived to imprison me
Me who foolishly freed myself from you, my friend
Friend who selfishly-selflessly bound my mouth to your ear
Ear which entertained with love my thoughts, myself
Myself which I threw away
Away from you:
My true best friend

Written May 2010, notice the repetition of words

March 1, 2012

Love you, love me?

*Written July 2007, years before actually being inlove. Written as an experiment.

I see the sun climb across the white cushions and through the blue oceans of the sky.
I hear the mesmerizing melody of the doves stringing and keying.
I smell the aroma of roses and tangerines racing through the air and crashing into my nostrils…ecstasy.
I feel the delicate, delicious, delightful caressing massage of silky roses.
I taste the sweet sugar of life.

It is you.
Do you not see?
No. I was
Mistaken.
You leave me with…
Reality.

Innocence exiled, as a child is stabbed until Breath is livered out of him.
The pulsating bombs of Life against Hope-the genocide of the Eardrums.
The bloody, sweat stench of truth lingers over the vulnerable flowers like a gaseous cloud.
The piercing needle of truth injects into every pore. Reality in. Dreams out.
Faith disintegrates in the acid, cavity stricken world with masticated Hope regurgitated at will.
It is my fault. Did i not see?

July 5, 2010

Sand

Heart ricocheting for a way out
Left right front back
Scrambling to escape
Fingers gripping the coiling serpent
That slowly wrapped itself around me.
Fool who took the embrace with love
Face white with flooding rivers of inflamed veins
My vision blurs as my lungs yelp in fear, helpless
I think of you
Your slender caramel skin and dark wavy hair
I think of you
When I kissed you and your smile
I think of you
When I embraced you with my arms
But as I hold you, you begin to leave
Escaping right between my fingers
Sand
The closer I hold you the faster you
disintegrate
into the wind
Until I am left
alone
holding myself
I realize I am alone
And I stop
My ventricles erupt all my anguish
And I die
Alone

April 25, 2010